Cold Cruel World-Boondox (David Hutto)

Cold Cruel World - Boondox (David Hutto) (Intro: Random people talking) I don't know what to do anymore After I quit with medicine I became psycotic I suffer from depression Complete depression Had it my whole life I have had it so bad that uh... I had anxiety Been diagnosed with major depression Lots of phobias, lots of fears Anxiety, panic attacks Manic depression before, I didn't think that Depression could be so bad (Verse 1:) Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders Everything around me closing in, it's starts to grow colder It's like I'm sitting on death row and waitin' for conclusion Shits real f**ked up, my brains filled with much confusion Do you know what it is to sit a 3am With a gun pressed to your temple on your knees prayin' Or in the bathroom, on the floor, a handfull of pills Cause the f**kin' rent's due and you can't pay bills Have you ever felt the cold grip of death in your heart I'm talkin' rips right in your cavity and pulls it apart Ten motherf**kin' seconds just from ending this sh*t Flames rising from the ashes that your about to commit Have you ever stopped your car somewhere far from everythin' Sat a half an hour, just thinkin' of a better way To put your soul to rest and set your mind at ease Put the barrel in my mouth, I wanna sleep for all eternity (Chorus:) Dear cold cruel world why am I here? I never asked to be alive Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive Dear please juse wipe away the tears I'll be better off when I'm gone In my own private Hell and left all alone (Verse 2:) Somany reasons just to leave this f**kin' planet Pressure gets to me so much, god damn, I just can't stand it People hatin', credit problems, b**ch be f**kin' my friends A million reasons, circumstances for your soul to transend Nobody like me, I'm a loser, parents wish I was dead I'm overweight, can't get a date, I'll turn my walls to red Unlock the door, turn up the music, flip the T.V. screen I'll leave a bloody f**kin' mess off for my moms to clean It's's to the point that I can't stand it, I can't even try to cope And you don't know me, you can't help me, you can't offer me no hope It's too late to try and stop it, I have lost the f**kin' war I ain't gonna write no f**kin' letter, leave my answers on the floor I'm a do it I swear, don't even think I'm lyin' Nobody gone remember me, nobody gone be cryin' All alone in my death like I was in life Let me take my final breath, they can bury me tonight (Chorus:) Dear cold cruel world why am I here? I never asked to be alive Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive Dear please juse wipe away the tears I'll be better off when I'm gone In my own private Hell and left all alone (Bridge:) You won't miss me when I'm gone (Flames risin', flames risin') I know you did me so wrong (Flames risin') (Chorus/Outro:) Dear cold cruel world why am I here? Flames risin', flames risin' Dear please juse wipe away the tears Flames risin', flames risin' Dear cold cruel world why am I here? (just wipe away, just wipe away) Flames risin', flames risin' Dear please juse wipe away the tears (just wipe away, just wipe away) Flames risin', flames risin' Dear cold cruel world why am I here? Flames risin', flames risin' Dear please juse wipe away the tears Flames risin', flames risin'